Even though I knew this weekend would be really chaotic with tons of assignments, I decided to watch "Kimi no Na wa" tonight. The movie freaking BLEW MY MIND. I won't spoil the movie for anyone who hasn't watched it yet, but the whole concept of the movie is dreams and time. It's funny because it was only last night that my dad and I were talking about time and that I had a really strange dream last night.
So, my mom stayed in Malaysia for the past three weeks to teach some course in a seminary my parents used to teach in (STS). I've really really missed her and I'm so happy she's coming back tomorrow. But it's weird how these few weeks passed by so quickly and so sluggishly at the same time. And it's also strange to think that I've also grown older during these three weeks. In fact, I'm growing older as I'm writing this blog post, and soon I'm going to be an old 80 year old lady with a bad back. Time has always been a fascinating thing to me. If we can travel to a place backwards, then why can't we travel in time in the same way? So...Dreams. This morning I got up at 4:30am in the morning to go to the toilet. After that, I went to bed, hoping for a few more hours of peaceful sleep. Then suddenly I was on a bus and I was looking at a text a picture of my grandma (who had passed away in 2012) that my mom sent me. This picture was sort of moving around and suddenly a picture of my grandma appeared on the screen. Then suddenly I looked to my left and there was my grandma sitting next to the window.There was someone sitting next to her. Her hair looked really smooth and tidy and she looked so peaceful. I walked to the seat in-front of her and I looked at her. I think she smiled at me, but I don't really remember. Her skin looked so soft, and even though she still looked old, there was something youthful about the way she looked. She didn't say anything. I thought of hugging her or kissing her on the cheek, but somehow I just didn't do that. Instead, I took her hand and kissed it. I was so happy to see her that I started crying. But because I was sick (in "real life"), so I had a lot of phlegm in my throat so I couldn't make any sound at all. Somehow, I knew that if only I could make some noise with my mouth, then I could spend another minute with Por Por (my grandma). But I couldn't. I woke up suddenly feeling really strange. Even though it seemed like a dream. I know it isn't. There's just something different about it. On top of that, one of our teachers at school (Mrs Cheung) was talking about her mother passing away and grief. She said something like "My mom and I were on a bus, and she just got off on a stop earlier than I did." COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT! Anyways, seeing my grandma again was really a big blessing from God. It's great to see how well she's doing up there! - Salad
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